Back to work

Went back to work after having 5 days off. Ended up coming home with a stomach ahce and then got a migraine. BLAH! Really wanted to find a blog or website that showed me some things I can make with the cartridge that came with my Cricut. So far no luck. :(

Was going to sew some too....but the meds I take for the migraine makes me loopy....so not a good idea to use a sewing machine! lol

Guess I will go lay down for a bit. It is only 6:30 and I feel like it is 10:00 at night!

Thanksgiving

Great Black Friday deal....I got the Cricut! I have been wanting one for about 5 years now. I am so happy. I am now trying to create crafts. I am also suppose to be working on my Christmas quilt. I cut a few squares out, but cut my finger a little so I stopped.

We got our tree up today, but no lights yet. I haven't been feeling the greatest today. So, hopefully tomorrow we will get it finished and then I want to craft more!

Moving on

Well, I was so excited last night cuz I got to get two new pairs of pants and a pair of dress boots for work. However, the trying on clothes part was awful! I REALLY need to lose this 55 pounds! So, this morning I packed my work out clothes and am going to go work out today at lunch. Maybe later I will even go to the rec. center and walk the track.

Last night on the way home my husband and I got to talking about how I feel about losing weight, or anything for that matter. I always start something but never finish. Is it because I am afraid I will succeed. Could be. Is it that I am afraid if I lose weight I will actually succeed at something and then want to be on my own and do my own thing. My husband said, "lets take the chance hon". I think he said that because he knows I will feel so much better about myself if I just lose the weight. I won't be depressed, I won't be sad, I won't get these stupid migraines all the time and I will be happy.

So, today I start (for the 101 time) to watch what I eat and work out every day! I even put my pedometor on today! My goal is to lose 55 pounds by this time next year! Shouldn't be too hard if I do it the right way!! That is a little more then 4 pounds a month. I need to do this for me!

I need to do this to show myself I can do something and finish it! I need to prove that I am a strong person and I can do anything!!!

Been some time....

Welp, been awhile. Looks like over a year since I have blogged. I am really feeling the need though to find some place to put my thoughts, dreams and hopes. I need to make some changes in my life and just not sure how to go about it.

My family is big, and we are all very close. For the most part we all live in the same State. I love that I have such a big family. Family get-togethers are so fun, like the holidays. My favorite was always Thanksgiving. I love walking into grandma's and smelling the turkey cooking. I have such great memories of when we use to go down to the farm when we were kids.

Grandma and grandpa lived on a farm. Not an animal farm. Just lots and lots of acreage. We would leave after school and head down for the weekend. I remember all us kids would sleep on the floor and I remember after dinner the adults would play cards.

I have so looked forward to as an adult being able to do this. But, some how it has all got lost in the hustle and bustle of things. We don't have time anymore for everyone to sit around the table and play cards, or to sit and enjoy and talk with each other. It makes me sad.

It makes me sad that these years are flying by and we do not seem to have time for each other anymore. It makes me sad that I feel guilty if I do spend this time with my family. Like I am "putting" out someone because he is not wanting to be there. I hate that feeling.

I need a change, and just don't know how to go about it. Someday, I will figure this all out.